Saturday, September 8, 2012

Run your Race!!!

We all have a race to run. There are so many things in my life that I have to constantly "achieve." I have to strive towards that Proverbs 31 woman, being a better aunt, friend, mother, wife, daughter etc. etc. Not to mention keep up with my house, children, church and health! All these things make up "my race." Often I feel defeated, too exhausted to go on. Often I find myself right here on this keyboard writing another blog about trying to do better or feel better.

 Sigh plus smile lol. So currently I am 3 months post par tum and I am stuck at a certain weight. Booo. Yea. I had a conversation with myself yesterday about running my race. I will forever be trying to perfect my health & relationships. It's just something I have to do. No excuses, gripes, or complaints. I feel my best when I'm closest to God, eating well & exercising, being patient with my kids (&family). So I have to work (hard) on those things. When ppl say everything good is worth working hard for or anything good takes hard work??? Something like that lol-it's true. The good news is that " I can do all things through him who strengthens me." Phil 4:13. Seriously, I can't keep up with all these things by myself. I'm not that good, not even close. What do we think God is for?? If not to be leaned on, then what? I've had to get over many humps in my 28 years. How can I even be discouraged & think that my Father who created HEAVEN and EARTH can't help me? can't save me? 

It is His very nature to be my strength! It is His perfect Love that casts out my fears. I can be healthy, I can be loving and kind and patient, organized & strong!  All things the scripture says. So why do I feel like I'm running in place on a stupid treadmill???? Maybe because I'm human & imperfect. Maybe because I get weary in well doing. 

Maybe because the moment I cross the finish line will also be the very moment I fall into the arms of Jesus. Meaning, perfection cannot be completed while I'm on this earth. Above all else I just want God to whisper in my ear and tell me "it's ok." It's ok to fail and get back up & start over. And repeat that 5oo more times lol. When Jesus said apart from Him we can do nothing-smh man that's so real. I'm a mess.

 Even this post is out of order! lol. It was inspired from my weight loss project and now I'm just throwing everything in the pit! The best of me KNOWS God loves me and He's not going to leave me. I believe that He's my help, my guide, my strength, my everything. I can do this. I can do it...through JESUS. I was born to run this race and I was born to finish this race!
~Philippians 3:13 says, "I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,  I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

Yes Jewel, strain forward!
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." 2 Timothy 4:7
Note to self: I am a perfect fit and being a perfect fit does not mean I have to fit right now! It does not mean that I'll always believe I fit either. No, there will be days when I doubt myself and on those days I have to remember that I do indeed fit into what God has called me to be. And not only am I perfect for God's will for me, so are YOU perfect for your ordained will. Smile.

Love me,
Love God.

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